There she goes, there she goes again.
PROFILE
TAG
when you say nothing at all.
CONNECTIONS
Layout: vehemency
Icon: reruntherace
Monday, December 7, 2009, 4:13 PM
4:13 PMHELLO
It really feels terrible when you're not as good as you think you are.
In an attempt to feel less terrible, I had a 2.5 hour nap & 2 cups of Lipton Milk Tea Gold.
It doesn't work, I'm still sad.
:'(
If you're gloating right now, you're a fucking bastard.
Friday, December 4, 2009, 10:32 PM
10:32 PMHELLO.
That's my Mum's tank on Fishville.
Lovely, isn't it?
(Mine is not as nice, though)
I've been having a serious case of mood swings lately.
I can be smiling happily now but 5 minutes later, I'm depressed to the extent that I'm close to tears.
I don't know what causes this sudden change in emotions, it just happens.
Right now as I'm typing this, I feel so terrible that I'm going to cry & the worst part is that I don't even know why I'm feeling that way.
It's crazy, I'm going to lose my mind if this continues.
Maybe I just need a break to sort out my thoughts & get myself back on track.
9 days.
Enjoy the weekend.
Sunday, November 29, 2009, 1:15 AM
1:15 AMHELLO.
I can't believe today is the last day of the 3-day long weekend, time really does fly.
When tomorrow comes, it will be back to long hours at school with all the useless tutorials that I don't even know why I bother to go for when I know I'm going to learn absolutely nothing.
I might as well stay at home & try to study the subjects on my own, even if I fail to understand anything, at least I didn't waste precious time & $.
Trust me, I know myself best & I say going to school makes no difference as to whether I know what I'm supposed to know.
To think it's a tertiary education & they still say 'complete your homework' & to make things worse, they add 'if you don't do your tutorials, I will mark you down for class participation'.
Honestly, who takes it seriously?
Imagine getting less than 39%, based solely on your projects/tests/exams, for a subject because you can't seem to get what you're studying due to some unknown reason, then you get full marks for class participation which is most probably 10%, add them both up, you have a grand total of less than 50% and now let me ask you: What difference does it make? You still fail anyway.
You may be agressively disagreeing with the point I'm trying to bring across but I know deep down, there is a tiny part of you that agrees with me.
I just munched my way through 3 apples, anymore & I will start vomiting.
I never want to eat apples again for a long time, though I think Mum will make me eat another 2 more later in the evening/night.
It's okay, once I finish all the apples, she will be so proud of me.
I watched 7 episodes of Desperate Housewives season 6 yesterday.
I can clog in so many hours of entertainment, cope with studying & work & also spend time with my family & close friends.
Oh, I'm really something special. I love being me!
But I love my family & close friends more.
Enjoy your Sunday.
Friday, November 27, 2009, 1:50 AM
1:50 AMHELLO.
Less than 2 weeks to the mid-sem tests, I don't feel like I'm prepared.
I actually thought the LCS2 test is after the Christmas break, when I saw everyone worrying about their legal letter drafting, I was like: We have >1 month, what's the big hurry for?
Then when I saw the test timetable 2 days ago, I was like: No way! It's not on the last few days of December, no wonder everyone was worrying!
There's 6 lectures worth of things to study for ME, it's quite a lot for my limited-capacity brain. I hope I don't get all the concepts & graphs mixed-up. This is the only subject I have a chance of doing well in, I don't want to screw it up.
I've been taking very opportunity available to avoid Tort & I'm very successful so far. I did glance through here & there when my group had to do the PBL#1 outline & that's about it. On my own, I didn't even read the first chapter. It's not that I'm lazy, Tort is just not my cup of tea.
To be honest, I like none of the law subjects.
I know what you're thinking, relax, I'm thinking exactly the same thing.
Look, just because things don't work out does not mean you should take the easy way out.
I think the biggest reason why my Mum is not very enthusiastic about me changing course is because she doesn't want me to waste the time I already spent & I agree with her 100%.
Wanting to change course is easy but actually doing it is a whole lot harder.
I'm not brave enough to let 1 year go to waste so I guess I'll have to learn to like the law subjects.
I may not fully succeed but it's the effort that counts.
Here's some good advice for everyone.
(Yes, good advice again.)
What you see is never what you get. I repeat, what you see is NEVER what you get. So please, when you make a decision, consider & consider & consider. When you think you're done considering, you're not done actually. You need to reconsider & reconsider & reconsider. Think very carefully when making a choice for when it's done, it can't be undone.
(It's like I'm advising everyone to be indecisive.)
I'm sure this has absolute relevance to everyone's life in someway or another.
Alright, I'm going to bed now.
(I actually wanted to say something suggestive but I changed my mind. ;))
Enjoy the weekend.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009, 3:04 AM
3:04 AMHELLO.
I have many questions, questions like:
What is the true meaning of Zoey's flashforward?
Who is the one who sent Olivia the text message?
What is up with the woman who called Dimitri & told him he's going to be murdered?
What is going to happen to Keiko & Bryce?
How are Llyod & Simon responsible for causing the blackout?
I need answers.
Oh damn, I can't wait for Friday when episode 10 is out.
1:26 AM
1:26 AMHELLO.
I finally found the time to watch Flashforward episode 9, it's loading right now as I'm typing this.
I've watched the latest episode (ep. 6) of Ugly Betty, next episode is only out on Friday.
I do watch the latest season of Amazing Race & Survivor when I'm not too tired on Friday nights after work & Privileged, without fail, every Saturday night.
As for my other favourites, they don't show it on TV (anymore) so I have not been watching regularly.
This is so tragic.
When this semster ends & the holidays are here, I'm going to go on a show marathon & catch up on the rest.
FlashForward is calling out to me.
I've just lost all motivation to talk about school, another time then.
The week is only halfway through, press on.
Sunday, November 22, 2009, 8:34 PM
8:34 PMHELLO.
Once again today is Sunday, which means the weekend is almost over.
I will really miss the weekend, especially when it's weekdays.
The weekend will be here again in 5 days but it seems like Friday always comes too late.
PS (Public Speaking) impromptu speech test was on Thursday.
You get any random topic & talk about it for 2 mins.
My topic was: How to keep a friend.
I'm really lucky to have gotten something that I could talk about, it's such an easy peasy (lemon squeezy) topic.
I remember seeing on the marking scheme that there needs to be at least 3 points with some elaboration, so I thought of truth, care & love.
I did not want to come across as some moral education teacher by talking about these 3 values for 2 whole minutes, so I decided to share a personal story.
Well, the story is true but it may have no link whatsoever with the topic.
The main point of my story is that, you should always talk about it when you're unhappy with someone because if you don't, how the fuck would they know what your problem is?
I didn't get to say it aloud because I was trying to quickly conclude within the time limit, so I don't think anyone understood the meaning of my story.
Let's see how it goes, I hope I do alright.
Parliament House visit was on Friday.
I was expecting the school to charter a bus there but obviously they didn't, sometimes I wonder where does my $1169 of school fees for each semester go to.
It's interesting because it's something new, it's not everyday that I go for a guided tour of the Parliament House.
Sadly, there were no freebies, I was expecting a notebook or pen or something like that.
(Wait, I have no idea why I'm such a sucker for freebies when I already have tons of notebooks/pens/anything that can possibly be a freebie.)
It was kinda short in duration so I was a little taken aback when the guide said that the tour has ended, I was just about to get comfortable in my seat & snooze.
Here's some good advice for everyone.
Everytime someone irritates/annoys you, pretend as though it didn't happen. Just go on with whatever you were doing before they started their pest attack & show no reaction to what just happened. Mentally take note of what they've done (not physically because if you write it down, they might see it & there goes everything) & start thinking of ways to make them pay for what they did. That's why they say revenge is sweet. Don't get mad, get even!
I use this all the time.
Beware, I might be plotting some scheme to get back at you as you're reading this right now.
Heehee.
(Seriously, of all the words I could use, I used heehee. It just ruined the mood.)
I'm going to have dinner right now & do my PS Special Occasions Speech draft at the same time.
That's all for now, I will be back when I'm back.
Enjoy tomorrow, at least try to.